You know, 2015 was bloody wonderful, but it took me by surprise in a lot of ways. Much of what I planned and envisioned, never eventuated. Plenty of goals weren’t reached. Major ideas were tossed out. Stuff derailed. As they say, “We plan, God laughs” but I’d like to add: “yet always gives us what we need.” Because I […]
Creativity comes in many forms. In all forms, really! Just take a moment right now to look around you at what has been created for your benefit, ease and pleasure.
And whilst words are wonderful, lately I’ve been encouraging myself to experiment with the infinite possibilities of self expression available to me.
Putting paint to brush to board.
The clothes I choose to dress myself in.
Long walks at sunset; soaking up lilac skies and the glint of a crescent moon.
Well, here we are! Just days away from the end of 2014. I’ll tell you what, this year has been a transformative and delightful 12 months! My life – and many a mindset – has changed both subtly and dramatically.
And put simply, I’m seriously appreciative that 2014 brought with it so much joy, because if I’m honest, 2013 was the most difficult and challenging year of my life. This year felt SO different. Not without loss and confusion and sadness, but perhaps with a little more laughter and (the big one) acceptance.
I almost didn’t celebrate my birthday this year. Which, for me (and my family will attest to this), is quite out of character. I kind of felt like: oh you know, it’s just 28, it’s nothing special… It’s all a bit much isn’t it? I’ll just do something for my 30th (yikes!) in two years time…
And then – thankfully – I snapped out of my momentary weirdness and decided to celebrate my 28 years on this planet by surrounding myself with all the things I love!
Ah, change is in the air! Aren’t transitions just a treat? Since my blogging break, I’ve made a feel little adjustments around the place. In “real life” as well as on the blog. Sometimes we only need to make a few tiny adjustments, pull back on a commitment or two or re-evaluate a seemingly small area of our life in order to make BIG changes.
For example, I needed to kill some overwhelm quick smart recently. I was feeling like I was spread as thin as vegemite on (gluten-free) toast, not giving 100% to anything, not being fully present or committed to any area of my life. I was exhausted, annoyed and upset. Mainly at myself.
I felt like I wasn’t being enough for anyone or anything. Like I just wasn’t giving ENOUGH. There wasn’t enough time in the day, enough energy, enough of me to go around. I felt I wasn’t being a good enough friend, sister, coach, daughter, student or employee.
I needed to slow down. Something had to give. An adjustment needed to be made.
It’s been a month since I last updated The Gratitude Files and what a month it has been. I’ve officially moved to Perth, as in I now have my own room, my clothes are hanging in a wardrobe and I’m job hunting like a crazy person.
There’s been a lot of uncertainty, excitement, confusion and sadness in the past few weeks. My brother has made some amazing steps forward in his recovery but we’ve also received the news we aren’t able to transfer him to Melbourne, so Western Australia is home for now. Which is totally cool.
My parents and I agree however that the last fortnight has been the hardest since the first month after his accident. He spoke his first word in 5 months the other day. He also turned 24 the other day. The ups and downs of the emotional roller coaster continue.
The future is a scary place sometimes. So I’ve been choosing to stay present. Whenever, wherever, presence. It brings me back into the now, back into love and back into gratitude.